But since 2009, I've belonged to a club I can't quit. There's no monthly dues, no ID card, no annual board meeting, no logo-emblazoned, primary-colored polo shirt. My membership can never be revoked.
I'm a member of the Fatherless Daughters Club.
He was amazing. He was funny. He was smart. He was hardworking. He was Daddy.
And he's gone.
The cancer didn't kill him. It was complications from the "lifesaving," cancer-removing surgery. How's that for cruel irony?
As a member of the Fatherless Daughters Club, I can't bring myself to buy Hubs's deserving dad a Father's Day card for fear I'll burst into tears in the middle of Walgreens while poring over those Hallmark sentiments.
As a member of this club, I wonder why people I know still have their dads when mine was taken from me. (This is especially true if either party is an asshole.)
As a member of this club, I question why some people get to live to be 92, when my dad only made it to 69.
As a member of this club, I hoard every piece of paper bearing his unmistakable handwriting.
As a member of this club, I saved a cell phone message he left me before he died, refusing to activate my new iPhone until Hubs could figure out how to upload the message to my PC.
As a member of this club, I sleep atop the comforter on our bed, because I have to cover up every night with a blanket that belonged to him. Yes, I have a blankie. No, I'm not ready to give it up like a big girl.
I hate this club. It sucks. Membership in the FDC does not have its privileges.
trifecta weekly challenge: The entry must be 33-333 words and include the word "club," as defined below:
a: an association of persons for some common object usually jointly supported and meeting periodically; also: a group identified by some common characteristic <nations in the nuclear club>
b: the meeting place of a club <lunch at the club>
c: an association of persons participating in a plan by which they agree to make regular payments or purchases in order to secure some advantage
e: an athletic association or team
My entry is 333 words.